i've suddenly decided i want to reminisce a bit. please do indulge me.
2012 was a transformative year for me. and probably (in the end), one of my best.
funnily enough though, nothing "big" happened.
i didn't get pregnant or have a baby, i didn't start school or graduate. i didn't fall in love or get married or travel to an exotic land. (i did read 78 books though.)
it started out being one of the worst years i've experienced*. i was so lost, and i felt hopeless and beaten down. i didn't see how things could possibly improve. i began making contingency plans.
but somehow, miraculously, things did get better. not overnight. not in a month or even two. but gradually, very gradually. it wasn't until the very end of the year that i could say with any certainty, "hey. we made it." (and not only did we survive, but we're happy!)
i changed in 2012. i began to discover who i really was. as cheesy and stupid as that sounds, it is the truest thing i've said all day. i've spent most of my life as a chameleon--one of the things i like about myself is that i can adapt quickly and with relative ease to my friends and their interests.
and one of the things i don't like about myself is that i can adapt quickly and with relative ease to my friends and their interests.
i've spent a lot of time being other people, so when the cumulative events of last year struck (allow me to invoke a wee bit of melodrama and say it was a bit of a crisis year), i was forced to figure myself out.
and it was one of the best things that's ever happened to me.
i'm hoping to continue that trend this year--one of my resolutions is to "be heather" (thank you, gretchen rubin).
happy 2013, my internet friends. (17 days late, yes.)
*i know it's highly annoying when people talk about their lives in vague, cryptic terms. my apologies. i'll try to fill in more details later if i deem it appropriate.
And we have enjoyed watching your metamorphosis! :)
ReplyDeleteAmen! I totally feel that way too, about getting to know myself. Way to be.
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